In the spring,
we climbed the rolling hills
and talked about our budding plans.
And we smiled,
our faces like a mirror
showing us our secret sides.
But then the fight:
the sharp words splintering the night,
how I couldn’t be what you’d need…
but oh how I could make you bleed—
I know the border lines we drew between us
keep the weapons down,
keep the wounded safe;
I know our antebellum innocence
was never meant to see the light of our armistice.
But how much would I give to have it back again?
How much did we lose
to live this way?
Vienna Teng - Antebellum
I appear to have written a fanfic.
And then I was suddenly tempted to write fanfic where Steve and Tony have a conversation about Alan Turing, and Tony explains who he was and what happened to him and Steve is disappointed in humanity.
I think I may have a problem, guys.
Now, to write it or not to write it?
when people think drunk!Tony is hilarious and don’t realize he’s struggled with alcoholism for years
#no but really #a massive chunk of Tony’s character is his drinking problem #when people try to hurt Tony that is what they bring up #when STEVE wanted to hurt Tony in Civil War that’s what he brought up #he is willing to forgive the mistakes of others and willing to take on allies that no-one else would touch #because he is always aware that he is one glass of champagne away from the guy who had to be carried drunk from a burning building
Even more than historical inaccuracies or naive/flustered/dumb Steve, even more than sudden unexplained manpain or weird rom-com-dialogue about ~commitment~, this is the thing that will yank me out of the flow of a fanfic, make me pause and say ‘no’.
It’s not like I’m saying drunk!Tony shouldn’t make an appearance in fanfics. Drunk!Tony happens, and it’s not pretty or funny, but it is something worth writing about. And I get it if it’s the other characters - the ones who don’t know him well, not Pepper or Rhodey - who find Tony amusing when drunk. That’s perfectly reasonable. But when it’s just a fic about the Avengers hitting the bars, and Tony slurring and boasting and stumbling around is fodder for comedic relief? No thank you, proceed to your nearest back button in an orderly fashion.